This is the beginning where all beginnings take place. In my childhood I grew up in poverty, we had a little TV where I would watch old shows on only four channels, I came across the classic Godzilla movies one rainy autumn day and there my obsession took hold, I couldn't look away, here was this mighty beast taking on other beasts. As I've grown older those movies still carry a certain weight within my heart. I don't believe they are just make-believe, no they have a kernel of truth hidden within them. I just wonder if he actually exists, what if he really is at the bottom of the ocean? There are millions of creatures at the bottom of the ocean that we have yet to see, what if he is down there.
My obsessive nature to find the truth leads me into applying diligently to my academics, I know that I need to go to college, get my Major in Oceanography and my Minor in Biology. I believe with my whole heart he is out there somewhere, just where I don't know yet. I apply for every scholarship I can get my hands on, growing up in a poverty stricken town having money to go to college is a very difficult accomplishment, I have to support myself off of my part time job and as much as I can I set back some money in savings for school, although my ticket to college are scholarships and a near perfect GPA.
The end of college looms near, my obsessive nature forces me to pour every part of my being into studying for the exams. Even in college I held a near perfect GPA, never allowing myself to slip up, sure I missed out on fun and parties, getting drunk and all those college fun things that students do, but I have a goal, a clear set goal that I've had in my mind since I was a very little girl, the hunt for Godzilla, he's out there and I'm going to find him. I've already been promised a position with an Oceanography group when I graduate college, I've been volunteering with them for approximately a year and they have watched me through my academics, and through their ever watchful eye they promised me a job, I'm ahead of the game, I have a job lined up.
I don't talk about my obsession with Godzilla, people would never understand, it would baffle them and then they would think I was crazy, off my rocker. If I am then whatever, but if I'm right I'll be the one to find him, I'm certain of it. I haven't made too many friends, well if truth be told I don't have any friends, friends only take away from time that could be better served to study, so I don't miss them, I'll worry about having friends when I get out of college and on track with my goals, but if they take away from my search then I'll let them go, I will not allow all my hard work to go into the toilet, no, friends mean nothing to me when I have a search to conduct. While I'm with this group of people I'll keep my pursuit secret from them but I will never stop looking, I'll dive as far as I can, I'll search as hard as I can until I meet him, until I can verify my hunches that he truly is out there and not some make-believe story created by the Japanese.
This is my life's mission, to find Godzilla and prove that the stories are true.
copywrite: Ashley Schultz 2015
